I love/hate to love hate you!

So... I've been doing this class with this trainer and I really had no idea what to expect when I paid the money for it. Basically.. we do the same thing every time we go. Kind of frustrating. Like.. I paid a lot of money to continue doing the same thing. Then today she told me I'm doing everything wrong.. which is fine.. I would like to do it right.. but we are on the 4th week doing the same stuff and she just mentioned it. I sort of feel picked on! (She only pointed out one thing I'm doing wrong which I was doing wrong because of the way she was describing it. ) She pointed out that my chest is stronger than my back. Yeah! I got that! THANKS!
I did push myself alot in the class and I ran home after cause I had to drop myself off after soccer practice. Anyway.. I've been really frustrated lately with my workouts and diet. Like I don't know if I'm doing too much or not enough and I just want to feel good with where I'm at.
BLAH!

Love this ARTICLE!!

Check out Moi's blog entry today! It is AMAZING! :)

Food!

Weekends are hard. Probably because my hubby hates being home so we spend way too much time out and about and EATING out and about. Today I went out on a limb and ordered something with a [wheat] bun (normally I would omit the bun!) and when it came out it had MAYO on it! I went to bring it back and my husband got all annoyed with me... like one blob of mayo isn't gonna kill ya. So I ate that too. Then I got home and figured "what the hell... why not eat this.. and that.. and this... and that.." now I totally understand why people are bulimic. I would LOVE to puke my brains out right now. I feel like crap.

Food is fuel... not an antidepressant. UGH!

My Butt Injury

So.. I've been recovering from a butt injury ever since I went trampolining with my sisters! At one point when I went to sit I slipped and hit my coccyx on the edge of a couple of trampolines. Anyway... it has been sore since that day... about 1.5 weeks now. It hasn't stopped me... but it's pretty damn funny when I "forget" and go to do something without thinking about it. WOWZA! People think I just randomly like to say potty words when I sit down. BWAH HA HA!

As for exercise and food and weight loss? Yesterday I had a different kind of kick in the ass when I went to weigh in at the gym for that body fat percentage test. Basically... it said I had no change... which is pretty frustrating, especially because I CAN SEE HUGE CHANGES IN MY BODY!! The scale also said I had gained but I KNOW I have lost... like.. my scale at home said I weighed MORE than their scale said I did at the beginning of the comp but yesterday my scale was 3 lbs less than their scale! WTH?!?!? I had to find comfort in the truth... that the scale they use to determine BF% is NOT a definite and fairly inaccurate [basically those types of mechanisms are incredibly finicky.. the difference could be where you are standing on the scale... plus it took her like 4 times attempting to make it work before I could even stand on the stupid thing!]. I scheduled an appointment for a hydrostatic body fat test next Saturday... and I can't RUN from those results!

The most frustrating thing about the weigh in yesterday was the way the trainer that weighed me in approached my results. Basically she told me that I MUST NOT BE EATING ENOUGH! REALLY?!?! She acted like I'm incredibly active and should eat more but then last night at nutrition and again today at SPINN she kept going on and on about how many people were complaining and that none of them were working hard enough to complain and that you get the results you put in and I'm like... REALLY?!??! I'm at the gym every damn day... she just kept giving me the impression that she thinks I don't work hard in the same 24 hours that she said I am incredibly active. I'M STUMPED!

On a lighter note I decided to see where I'm at! I made a chart of my prescheduled workouts for the next month... This week I'm going to track all of my calories AND wear my heartrate monitor for ALL of my workouts to see exactly how many additional calories I'm burning on any given day. I'm going to revamp my food and try a zig-zag approach to eating. (Basically I'm going to increase my calories on days I burn a TON!) I also am going to up my protein intake. I know I need to do some serious strength training but really have nowhere to put it this month.

Bottom line.. I'm VERY BUTT HURT!! Today is a new day and I am more than prepared to CONTINUE TO BRING IT!!

Just a thought.

I've been thinking a lot lately about why so many people who lose weight gain it all back. Here is what I came up with.

Too many of us approach weight loss as making temporary changes in order to produce permanent results. Unfortunately this is not the case.

Temporary changes yield temporary results.

If you want results that last, you must change your habits indefinitely. Only permanent changes will yield permanent results.

I'm official!

Today I passed my Certified Personal Trainer test! I'm official!! NOW WHAT?!? ;o)

Back from good times!

I just got home after spending 4 days in Utah. It was so fun to be with my family and I even got away with friends one night. It wasn't really challenging to make good food choices, I just had to make VERY REAL CHOICES!! I had to create good options cause they weren't just automatically there.

I had an opportunity to go on a girls night with my sisters and we ended up going to this HUGE trampoline place. Talk about a fantastic workout and a TON of fun! We worked really hard to get pics of us in the air... so so fun!!!

The girls night with friends was definitely fun! This is me with Damon before we went out.. can't you tell he is totally my kiddo?

This is my girls night outfit! Kind of fun stuff!!
So we went out to dinner at a chinese place and I totally embarrassed the girls I was with when I insisted on finding out what the crap I was eating. There were these white noodle things under my chicken and I was umm... not PLEASED! I didn't realize that my chicken wrap was goign to come out with deep fried, puffed up rice! UGH! I had to try to eat around the noodles and then the gals insisted we go to a new DESSERT BAR called "The Chocolate"!! The CHOCOLATE!?!? REALLY?!?!? I actually had to deal with a total social dilemna there. I just didn't know if PASSING on the dessert was really a choice I needed to make. Like was I isolating myself by not just having fun and giving myself a break?!!? As I'm sitting there contemplating if I really am sick in the head for not getting a 600 calorie piece of simple carb/fat packed deliciousness... in walks Tyson from the reality TV show, Survivor. I happen to be a HUGE Survivor fan and although Tyson isn't like a "fan favorite" he is from Utah. So... being from Utah you cheer for your home crowd. I've always enjoyed his crazy antics and was excited to see him back on this all star season! ANYWAY!! It was a fantastic distraction. I stopped focusing on the chocolate drizzled cheesecake and started trying to figure out if it would be "appropriate" to ask to take a pic with him cause HELLO... I HAD TO GET IT FOR MY BLOG!! I didn't really want to bug him while he was out with his friends BUT.. my friend is pretty fearless and got me this great pic opportunity!!

Turns out he's my friends cousin... the thought that he's just Brooke's cousin makes me think hmm... I SHOULD TOTALLY BE ON SURVIVOR!! Maybe that will be my next fun task to take on!!!
I also got an opportunity to workout with Lisa while I was there! I LOVE HER GUTS!! It was awesome, butt kickin' fun times!
Anyway... I'm excited to be home and able to get back on MY track! Hope you guys are doing fantastic! :o)

Just sayin' ;o)

In case you were wondering... my last post is sort of meant to MESS with DEBBIE! ;o) BUT.. since I realize that some people might think I'm insane I just want to clarify. I was not disappointed about the chip.. not a big deal. BUT... the fact that I put it in my mouth without thinking about it is a problem. I want each food choice, GOOD OR BAD, to be a conscious decision!!! I agree that one bite won't make me gain weight BUT one bite generally leads to more bites. I still maintain that the "one bite won't hurt" mentality is detrimental in weight loss! Please oh please... don't buy into it.

One accidental bite is an opportunity to learn.

One intentional bite is an excuse to eat badly because its "just one bite."

Yesterday was NEAR PERFECT

I only made one mistake. 1/2 of a french onion sunchip.. once it was in my mouth I was like DANGIT!! I quickly gave the rest of it to my child... but I totally didn't rush to the sink to spit it out! ;o) I chewed and swallowed and hmm.. that was so salty and delicious! Today... no sunchips for me! ;)

20 ozs water

BF:

1/3 cup oats, 1/3 cup ff cottage cheese, 3 egg whites, 1/2 t smart balace (I LOVE THESE PANCAKES!!)

2 cups coffee

1.5T Sugar free french vanilla creamer

1cutie

Snack:

Protein Bar

1/2 of one french onion sunchip

20 0zs water

Lunch:

3 cups lettuce, 3 ozs chicken, 2T light sour cream, 1/8 cup shredded colby jack cheese, 1/4 avocado

20 0zs water

Snack:

4 ozs chicken,

4 ozs granny smith, no sugar added applesause

1 T mustard

1 cutie

2 cups coffee

1.5 T sugar free french vanilla creamer

(This snack was inspired by Debbie!)

20 ozs water

Dinner:

1.5 cups spaghetti squash with

1/4 cup spaghetti sauce, 2 ozs ground turkey, 3 mushrooms, 1 T light sour cream

20 ozs water

Exercise:

45 minute spinn class

45 minute weight training class

Weigh in for my kick your butt challenge!

So this morning this is my weigh in.. I'm not disappointed but realize that this is LESS than my ticker says. In order to reach my ticker goal I will have to lose 5.74%. So all you have to do is lose 5.75% and you have braggin' rights forever! ;o)

Kat and Em.. if you are in... for pride and glory and bragging rights.. you can send a pic of your weight with the date and a fork to kariscomp@yahoo.com. There is no money involved.. just a good ass-kickin' month! For those of you in the comp who have decided to take on this (near impossible ;o) ) endeavor. We can use your March 5th weight and go from there!) April 5th.. we'll see if I've done it! AND if YOU'VE BEAT ME!!

Household item!

Hey.. I haven't weighed in in a while! I NEED a household item!

ANYONE comment and leave a household item for me to use so I can post my weight for you guys! I know there has GOT to be a way to authenticate it!

THANKS! :o)

P.S. perfect day #1 looked like this:

20 ozs water

BF: 3 egg whites, 1/3 cup FF cottage cheese, 1/3 cup oats (all made into pancakes)

1 cutie

1/2 teaspoon smart balance butter stuff

2 cups coffee with 1.5 T creamer

Mid morning Meal:

I cutie

6 ozs sirloin, 3 mushrooms, 1/2 t smart balance

20 ozs of water

Lunch: 1.5 cups lettuce, 1.5 cups spinach, 4 ozs chicken, 1/8 cup shredded colby jack cheese, 1/4 avocado, 2 T light sour cream (this would be a salad)

1 cutie

20 0zs of water

Mid afternoon meal: Protein bar (20 G protein, 200 calories)

20 ozs of water

2 cups coffee

1.5 T creamer

Dinner: 1 zuchinni, 2 mushrooms, 4 ozs chicken, 1 t olive oil

15 ozs water

Plus an hour at the gym in the a.m. which included a 25 minute 5k! ;o)

Debbie mentioned something about beating me at my own game. Why not just play MY GAME?!?

How'd she do that?

Here are the rules I've been following to lose weight. These are NOT a diet.. they are my life and they work! ;o) I occasionally send this to friends so if it seems worded funny, that would be why! Most of the time.. people don't want to listen.. or think they have it all figured out. Either way, I thought the only way to level the playing field for you poor souls who have accepted the challenge is to SHOW YOU WHAT I'M DOING!!
#1- Drink 16 ozs of water first thing in the morning.. before ANYTHING else!
#2- Eat breakfast within 30 minutes of waking up.. STICK TO unprocessed carbs (like oatmeal, WHOLE GRAINS, and combine it with a protein... egg whites are fantastic.. low in calories.. high in protein. ALSO drink 8 ozs of water with your breakfast.
#3- Eat 2-3 hours after breakfast. Same rules apply. Always combine a protein with your carbs so a snack could be an apple with [natural] peanut butter... I know there are calories in peanut butter but it's a great snack and it's actually good for you!!
#4- Lunch!!! WHOLE GRAINS!! NO LUNCH MEAT!! A chicken salad is great for lunch. Try it with balsamic vinegar dressing or splurge and do "light" sour cream. Fewer calories then dressing and it makes me feel like I'm eating Mexican food... which I LOVE!! PS WATER!!!!!
#5- Afternoon snack! This is a good time to do some sort of protein shake.. with 15 [unsalted as raw as you can get] almonds.

#6- Dinner! For the most part you can eat what your family is eating. AVOID overindulging at dinner... your goal is to eat 200-300 calories every meal so portion sizes are uber important. ALSO.. stick to WHOLE GRAINS!! If you are doing rice.. make sure it's brown.. tortillas and pastas should be whole grain... you can also substitute most noodles with squash! LOVE IT! WATER!!
#7 - DRINK LOTS OF WATER!!! AND a decent amount of protein as well... at least 60-80 grams!! ALSO... if you can AVOID processed carbs altogether you will be doing yourself a huge favor! I.E. NO SUGAR... and honestly, if you want to do breads, tortillas, pastas, your best option is to MAKE THEM YOURSELF. A great bread alternative is Ezekiel bread which can be found in the refrigerated section of any whole foods store.

#8 - Substitute meats for a LEAN option... ground anything should be turkey... Beef should be lean cuts... so no ribeyes, forget about breakfast meats... turkey is a better option but ALL breakfast meats are just a collage of preservatives, FAT and sodium... both are horrible for you.. (The day I gave up turkey bacon was a little traumatic... but I'm over it now!)

This is what I will be doing. This is what helped me lose those last 20 lbs. This is a way of life I am happy to live! :o)

On that note: I was IMing Amanda the other day and we were talking about the "one bite won't hurt" theory. I also noticed a few people who call me obsessive. ;o) Amanda has also noticed this. HERE'S THE DEAL... I'm not going to tell you one bite won't hurt because I KNOW that one bite can change everything. It's not just that one bite tends to lead to ten.. but one bite changes your focus. It changes the way you think about you.

It takes you one bite FURTHER AWAY FROM YOUR GOAL!

If you were a recovering alcholic I would NOT tell you that one drink won't hurt. I don't think that any of us are much different than this. We are addicted to putting crap in our bodies that is BAD FOR OUR BODIES!! We need to overcome this addiction. We need to stop feeding our addiction (literally). Sure you might relapse. But you need to learn from that moment and get back on the wagon. So.. if you really want to kick ass, you've got to change your focus. Stop feeding your addiction. Stop being a slave to your body. Take control! You are the only person standing in your way.

That damn ticker!

At the top of my blog is a ticker... a ticker that says I'm 7.6 lbs away from my goal. The ticker doesn't bother me on most days but today... it's haunting me. You see.. the ticker is a goal I set back when I had a "NUMBER" goal and since then I've changed my goal BUT I have no way of really knowing how I'm doing when it comes to my body fat %. ANYWAY.. that goal represents being in the 1-teens... something I HAVE NOT BEEN since I was in high school.

I haven't really pushed the "losing weight thing" since this new competition started BECAUSE.. I didn't pay into it and I'm NOT competing. Hmm.. this makes me sad! I love competition. I love pushing myself if for nothing else than to push others. SO...

WHO WANTS A COMPETITION?!!?

I'm going to warn you that I am a brutal competitor and can surely kick your trash! ;o) Really.. if I can reach this number goal this month it will be more than 6% lost. But... I know it will be funner to do it if I feel like I'm PUSHING YOU to work harder. So... first off.. I'm calling out MINDY! That's right Mindy... this is for you! I DARE YOU TO BEAT ME THIS MONTH!!! (And I know you can do it!) BRANDY! Umm, yesssss, you! I KNOW that you can beat me and I am totally willing to help you any way I can... including by being that "stupid skinny b who is NOT going to beat you!!". DEBBIE!! You know you've wanted to kick my butt in more ways then one since you first started reading my blog. I know you've got it in you so BRING IT!! BEAT ME!! I know you can... but do you know you can?!?! And last but not least... I'm calling out my little bro JUSTIN!!! Why Justin? Because I love you and I would love to kick your butt! That just sounds fun!

And of course... I invite anyone to take the challenge. I'm happy to make a side wager if that would be additional incentive! ANYONE?!!? If you have been called out.. please comment and let me know if "it's on" if you haven't been called out but want to kick my ass... BRING IT!! (and comment!)

If you think I'm slightly insane.. you aren't alone! I get that A LOT!!

I'm so excited to have a little competition!! WHO'S IN?!?!?

Body Image

I know no one wants to hear this.... but it's the truth.

The scale is staying the same.. but I am noticing BAD changes in my body.

My boobs seem to be slightly bigger.. this scares me. I start to worry that I am increasing fatty tissue on my body (because boobs are fat!). I also feel like my middle is growing.. but once again the scale is always between 120 and 124. I was getting ready to go out with a friend yesterday and put on an outfit I would normally think I look cute in. I looked in the mirror and thought, "GEEZE I look wide in this!" Then I got mad at myself. I actually said out loud, "WHY!?? Why can't I see myself as thin. I'm wearing size 3 freakin' jeans.. I know I'm not fat!!"

It's so frustrating. I just want to look at my body and be proud of it. Instead I'm always over analyzing and stressing over small changes.

I swear it is the nature of women to never be happy with their bodies. It starts when we are small and we never get over it. My name is Karilynn and I'm an obsessive, over analyzer. First step is admitting you have a problem right?

I'm a CHEATER!!

I just wanted to confess that while I've managed to drink all my water and technically only have one cup of coffee a day.. IT IS A VERY LARGE CUP! ;o)
And.. this morning my son informed me he had a book report due yesterday! Normally I would tell him to face the music BUT.. his teacher hates us.. so I typed while he dictated. I've never read the book and was only the fingers.. of course.. that makes me the fingers behind the punctuation as well. OH WELL!!
I'm A CHEATER!!

Love me some sunshine!

Okay.. today was a BEAUTIFUL day... I couldn't waste it so.. today I woke up and went to a 45 minute spin class. Came home, got boys off to school.. passed off the rest of my personal trainer quizzes THEN.. took my babies out for a run in the stroller/trailer. I have NEVER ran while pushing anything before so it was a little different for me. I managed to average a little under 10 minute miles for the 3.5 miles I ran "the long way" to the grocery store. I grabbed a couple of gallons of milk there and then took the short way home! 1.5 miles at a brisk WALK. I got home and actually laid on my concrete porch for a while soaking up the sun. A friend called and I decided that when my boys got home we would ride our bikes over to her house. (3.3 miles away!) So.. today, in total... I did a 45 minute spin class, ran 3.5 miles, walked 1.5 miles and biked 6.6 miles while pulling a trailer with 2 little guys in it!! Hows that for a fun day!? Tomorrow is supposed to be just as beautiful and I start the morning at the gym. I'm sure I will be taking advantage of the warm sun tomorrow as well! LOVE the SUN!!