That damn ticker!

At the top of my blog is a ticker... a ticker that says I'm 7.6 lbs away from my goal. The ticker doesn't bother me on most days but today... it's haunting me. You see.. the ticker is a goal I set back when I had a "NUMBER" goal and since then I've changed my goal BUT I have no way of really knowing how I'm doing when it comes to my body fat %. ANYWAY.. that goal represents being in the 1-teens... something I HAVE NOT BEEN since I was in high school.

I haven't really pushed the "losing weight thing" since this new competition started BECAUSE.. I didn't pay into it and I'm NOT competing. Hmm.. this makes me sad! I love competition. I love pushing myself if for nothing else than to push others. SO...

WHO WANTS A COMPETITION?!!?

I'm going to warn you that I am a brutal competitor and can surely kick your trash! ;o) Really.. if I can reach this number goal this month it will be more than 6% lost. But... I know it will be funner to do it if I feel like I'm PUSHING YOU to work harder. So... first off.. I'm calling out MINDY! That's right Mindy... this is for you! I DARE YOU TO BEAT ME THIS MONTH!!! (And I know you can do it!) BRANDY! Umm, yesssss, you! I KNOW that you can beat me and I am totally willing to help you any way I can... including by being that "stupid skinny b who is NOT going to beat you!!". DEBBIE!! You know you've wanted to kick my butt in more ways then one since you first started reading my blog. I know you've got it in you so BRING IT!! BEAT ME!! I know you can... but do you know you can?!?! And last but not least... I'm calling out my little bro JUSTIN!!! Why Justin? Because I love you and I would love to kick your butt! That just sounds fun!

And of course... I invite anyone to take the challenge. I'm happy to make a side wager if that would be additional incentive! ANYONE?!!? If you have been called out.. please comment and let me know if "it's on" if you haven't been called out but want to kick my ass... BRING IT!! (and comment!)

If you think I'm slightly insane.. you aren't alone! I get that A LOT!!

I'm so excited to have a little competition!! WHO'S IN?!?!?

Body Image

I know no one wants to hear this.... but it's the truth.

The scale is staying the same.. but I am noticing BAD changes in my body.

My boobs seem to be slightly bigger.. this scares me. I start to worry that I am increasing fatty tissue on my body (because boobs are fat!). I also feel like my middle is growing.. but once again the scale is always between 120 and 124. I was getting ready to go out with a friend yesterday and put on an outfit I would normally think I look cute in. I looked in the mirror and thought, "GEEZE I look wide in this!" Then I got mad at myself. I actually said out loud, "WHY!?? Why can't I see myself as thin. I'm wearing size 3 freakin' jeans.. I know I'm not fat!!"

It's so frustrating. I just want to look at my body and be proud of it. Instead I'm always over analyzing and stressing over small changes.

I swear it is the nature of women to never be happy with their bodies. It starts when we are small and we never get over it. My name is Karilynn and I'm an obsessive, over analyzer. First step is admitting you have a problem right?

I'm a CHEATER!!

I just wanted to confess that while I've managed to drink all my water and technically only have one cup of coffee a day.. IT IS A VERY LARGE CUP! ;o)
And.. this morning my son informed me he had a book report due yesterday! Normally I would tell him to face the music BUT.. his teacher hates us.. so I typed while he dictated. I've never read the book and was only the fingers.. of course.. that makes me the fingers behind the punctuation as well. OH WELL!!
I'm A CHEATER!!

Love me some sunshine!

Okay.. today was a BEAUTIFUL day... I couldn't waste it so.. today I woke up and went to a 45 minute spin class. Came home, got boys off to school.. passed off the rest of my personal trainer quizzes THEN.. took my babies out for a run in the stroller/trailer. I have NEVER ran while pushing anything before so it was a little different for me. I managed to average a little under 10 minute miles for the 3.5 miles I ran "the long way" to the grocery store. I grabbed a couple of gallons of milk there and then took the short way home! 1.5 miles at a brisk WALK. I got home and actually laid on my concrete porch for a while soaking up the sun. A friend called and I decided that when my boys got home we would ride our bikes over to her house. (3.3 miles away!) So.. today, in total... I did a 45 minute spin class, ran 3.5 miles, walked 1.5 miles and biked 6.6 miles while pulling a trailer with 2 little guys in it!! Hows that for a fun day!? Tomorrow is supposed to be just as beautiful and I start the morning at the gym. I'm sure I will be taking advantage of the warm sun tomorrow as well! LOVE the SUN!!

Perfect Week...HERE I COME!!

So.. today starts the perfect week challenge and I am ready! I went to 3 different stores yesterday (Sams, Sprouts, Walmart) to prepare myself to be perfect with my food!! I'm really excited to have a perfect week... ESPECIALLY since I've been dealing with bloating and a less than abundant supply of foods I feel good about the last couple days.... So I am PREPARED foodwise to do well... I have slipped on the water as I've increased my coffee intake SO... I'm limiting my coffee intake. SERIOUSLY one cup of coffee a day! THAT'S IT!! (This would be down from like 6 cups a day!)

Exercise will be easy for me.. as it is very integrated into my life. I've got dates with Brandy MWF @ 5am and dates with SPINN class TTh @ 5:30 am and Saturday @ 9 am. My husband fixed my bike trailer/double stroller yesterday so I'm hoping to use that as an excuse to get out and run a couple miles today. Got to try it out. ;o) In general... I DO NOT EXERCISE ON SUNDAYS!! I continue to work on posture. It's a big deal... I don't want to be hunchbacked forever... and I do want to get optimal results from my workouts.

I want you guys and gals to know that this it totally possible. I actually believe that there were months (ESPECIALLY April) that I had an entire perfect MONTH! It's about focusing on your goal and making up your mind to get there. GO FOR IT!!

Guess WHAT?

My hair is RED! ;o)
I was bored! Now to change the rest of me. So much to do with my body.. not sure where to begin. I want to be below 18% body fat. I'll get there! ;o)

PMS

Okay.. so I have been a total slacker. It's this weird cycle I go through when I'm doing the whole "having normal periods thing". When I am pmsy.. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to read blogs... and I haven't... for like A WEEK!! OY! Today I am devoted to reading a whole lot of blogs and COMMENTING!! Sorry that I have not been the support I should be. But isn't it nice to know I'm human?! ;o)
I've been doing some good in the world even if I haven't been online as much. I've started doing 5 am workouts.. and it's been a lot of fun. I've been studying like crazy and passing off these quizzes so I can get my certification!! It's entertaining... but there is SO much information.. HOLY COW!! I also have my CPR/AED certification tonight. Should be good times. I am hoping I will be the only one in the class. THAT WOULD ROCK!! Talk about getting in and getting out! ;o)
The highlight of the week thus far... the one that made me giddy... was when this AWESOME trainer at the local gym told me she would be more than willing to let me shadow her. You have no idea how worried/stressed I've been about getting hands on experience. I'm seriously STOKED!!
Now...... I need to get my focus back to water intake and nutrition. These two things are the KEYS to success! ;o) Hope everyone is having a fantastic week! The countdown has nearly begun!! WOW!! I can't believe February is almost over! AHH!!!