Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Somethings gotta give!

Okay... I'm sick of being afraid of being thin. Yeah I'm sure that sounds strange to many of you but it is my reality. In my life I have found it easy to hide behind my adipose and now I've decided it's time to emerge. As an introduction I thought I would start with my motivation. So here goes!

ReAsOnS i WaNt To LoSe WeIgHt:
1. I want to feel beautiful.
2. I want to be able to run.
3. I want to be capable of getting up while snowboarding.
4. I want to be healthy.
5. I want to know that my organs are usable if I ever become a donor.
6. I want to avoid diabetes, sleep apnea, and other complications that come with obesity.
7. I want to learn how to eat right and make a lifestyle change.
8. I want to fit into a single digit pant size.
9. I want to use exercise as a therapy and not torture.
10. I want to prove to myself and my husband that I can follow through with something.
11. I want to NEVER reach 200 lbs.
12. I want strangers to do a double take when I walk past.
13. I never want my boys to be embarrassed of their "fat mom".
14. I want my hubby to be proud of me.
15. I want my hubby to feel like he is married to a "hot mama".
16. I want my kids to grow up HEALTHY and not fall into the pitfalls of crappy food, or emotional eating.
17. I want to be more motivated to take control of my life in all aspects.

That being said, my biggest problem in the past is basically this. I NEVER FINISH WHAT I START!! There I said it out loud! I've never really understood my amazing ability to sabotage myself but in all instances as of late I have used my children as an excuse. I never finished school because it was too time consuming and took away from my children as does exercise. Truely, I can exercise when the children are sleeping which takes NOTHING from them and eating right does not take anything from them. I need to adopt a different attitude. Me feeling good about myself takes NOTHING from them and gives them SO MUCH!!

My motto for this adventure:
FiNiSh WhAt YoU sTaRt!!!

1 comment:

Kim and Adam said...

I am freakin in LOVE with this BLOG now!! for real, I am going to checking it like every day:) I am so excited for you!!!!