Kay.. so I'm still going to the gym, I'm even sticking to my diet... but... I just don't have any passion these days. I want to throw my alarm when it goes off at 4:30 in the frickin' morning. I want to burn those damn cookies that are still sitting on my counter from valentine's that I can't eat... (but my boys don't seem to eat either!) I think what I really need is to get on the scale and see a smaller number, but I fear the opposite so I stay away. I'm still frustrated from Thursday and I feel like I'm in a rut.
I actually asked the owner of my gym if she would do like personal training for cleaning... I.E. she trains me, I clean her gym. She said NO! Go figure. Today I found my amazing exercise ball has been popped! So I picked up a new one at wal-mart. I'm mostly excited for the poster that shows all the exercises you can do with it. I am hoping this helps get me back on track. It's amazing how easy it is to stay motivated when you can really see and feel the changes. I guess I need to step away from the scale and try on my before outfit again... or see how my wedding ring is fitting these days. I even went through old pics today trying to find motivational skinny ones. The biggest problem with me is that I HAVEN'T been thin since I was 19, so it feels silly to morn my adolescent size. But at the same time... I want some sort of picture in my head of what my goal "looks" like. I guess it shouldn't be so frustrating but... it is!
I am WAY grateful for this competition and all of you because without you, I might have decided that it wasn't worth fighting for. So maybe I'll throw my alarm when it goes off... but I'm still getting out of bed and that's something right?
3 comments:
I am so sorry you are feeling this way! But it is ok and normal. We all get it. Keep your focus, write it down, look at it daily, you will get it. Hang in there!
It is definitely a low in motivation time for me to. I think it is more than something that you are getting up so dang early in the morning to workout... It is A Lot! Just think... March 5th is only a little over 2 weeks away... if we look at it as 2 weeks to work extra hard maybe that will get us over this hump. 2 weeks seems way shorter than thinking about June...
It will be so worth it!
Kari - you are doing great. I"m sorry the mojo is gone - but remember it is NOT lost forever! There are ups and downs with everything - even weight loss. I PROMISE you WILL get your groove back and be feeling ever-so-good about your goals, etc. Just keep at it! This is just a little slump and it WILL pass - but only if you keep at it!
One thing I did, when training, that really worked is I would get a poster (from like wal-mart for 30 cents) and make it into a calendar. So, put on all the lines and whatever to make it look all official. Then, with each workout and run I would write into the square what I did. If I stuck to my diet, I got a star. If not, a frowny face. It was MEGA motivating to me...at the end of the day to put on that star. Also, when I weighed in I put what my LOSS was in the square, NOT what my total weight was. My total LOSS was what went in...to help keep the motivation high.
Keep it up. You're doing great. The mojo will return...
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