So Nicholette brought up this "is this a lifestyle change" issue and I thought I should clarify.
YES!! The reason why I have CHOSEN to be rid of sugar and anything that is not WHOLE grains is because I think it is something I can EASILY do for the rest of my life. I can't imagine having to count calories of points for the rest of my life! Once I am at my goal weight, I will not be AS psycho about it but seriously... I think EVERYONE knows that when we veer too far from our diet, we end up being punished on the scale, with only ourselves to blame. If I'm going to eat carbs that aren't good for me by eating bread that is not whole grain... I WOULD WAY PREFER TO EAT some of the JUNK FOOD that is sitting around. I mean, if eating a butterfinger is just as bad for me... why the hell waste the opportunity to cheat on bread?
My anxiety comes from fear of failure. I have never lost this much weight in my life. I've never been this dedicated to a goal. When I started this blog, I named it FINISH WHAT YOU START, because I never do. I don't want to get through this half-assing it! I want to GIVE IT MY ALL! So I can really be proud of the fact that I FINISHED it with 100% effort.