Thursday, September 10, 2009

Screw you 136!!

*THE FOLLOWING POST IS MY REFLECTION ON A NUMBER!! IT IS NOT TO INSINUATE IN ANY WAY/SHAPE OR FORM THAT I THINK I'M FAT AND BLAH BLAH BLAH!!! I'M JUST WORKING TOWARDS A GOAL AND SEEING NO PROGRESS!!! ;o)*
I'm sorry for being vulgar but umm... really... if I see the number 136 on that damn scale one more time.... UGH!!!!! Yesterday my morning weigh in was 135.0 DANG not 134.9 but I decided I would take it and be happy about it. This morning 136.2 AH!!! I get that weight fluctuates and I could just be better hydrated than I was yesterday morning but GEEZE!!! I've been doing this 138-135 fluctuation for a month! All the while I've been busting my ASS!!! Running, shredding, dieting like an obsessive freak and STILL I cannot get away from this stupid number! I'm at the end of another competition where I am in position to win something but the weight just wants to hang around. Today, I'm starting a new diet thing.... just to break this stupid plateau! Honestly girls, as I type I am intermittently GAGGING down oatmeal JUST because my Trainer said it's good for me. BLECK!! I've put so much cinnamon in it that it looks like those brown no bake cookie things. I think I've eaten about half of it in 30 minutes. that would be 1/6 of a cup of oatmeal. LOL!! On the flip side I must admit that my body is firmer. Honestly, I still have a doughnut in the middle but am almost rid of love handles. I can't even believe it!! I am also completely rid of my boobs. REALLY!! I could feel the disappointment radiating from my husband the last time he went for a squeeze and realized they were officially gone. It's actually kind of a hard thing to deal with. I understand why women get breast augmentation surgery. It's a confidence thing. Some days I sit back in awe of how far I've come, but others I worry of becoming complacent. I know that I've come a long way and I'm SO proud that I have done it... but I also KNOW that I have a little ways to go... I guess I should know better... it has never been easy. I don't even want it to be easy. I just want to see my ass on the floor when I've worked it off. I'm with Vicki on this one! "I despise losing -- unless it is fat off of my butt!"

4 comments:

WeightWatcher Mama said...

all i can say is i'm sure you can do this. i've seen your progress. i've been doing the same for about a month. between 130-135. however my weight is creeping because i've been slacking in the tracking dept. i really am trying to bust ass here. i know this challenge keeps me motivated and it's always in the back of my head. good luck! i hope you win your competition. you have worked so hard already!

Vicki said...

I am sure you will just keep pressing forward and you will find the edge of your plateau soon. Wish we lived closer -- then we could use our competitiveness and work out together... I know that would make me push harder. :) I can imagine us doing 30 day shred double jump ropes while dripping sweat like maniacs-- lol

Melissa said...

UGH, it IS frustrating when you are kicking butt, but the numbers aren't dropping. You just need to change it up a bit...and you WILL see results!

Ellura said...

lol - Okay, I'm laughing my butt off over your post! It is very refreshing to "hear" a little honesty! And I looked into that run in Loveland you were talking about. If I found the right one they have a walking category. I'm not much of a runner but I thought I might be interested in the 10 k walk! I'll talk to elise and make sure I have the correct website. Keep up the hard work - it sounds like you deserve a medal for consuming that oatmeal! LOL You are really an inspiration to me.